You know things are going well when talking bird bark at you.

To start with God, the Eternal Father, told me that polygamy wasn't even His idea to begin with, and He has given me a promise that it's practice will be done away with in an eternal capacity. I do remember some words of wisdom from a girl that I am in the process of getting a divorce from. She said, "Forgive everyone and you will get out of it." Which brings me to my next topic. Gordon didn't marry me to Britney, midnight of December 2, 2002, he married me to Jessica, my first babysitter. It was interesting to she her when she came to visit me. She is somewhere in her late 40's and yet she doesn't look a day over 21. However, my marriage to her has been one of humbling experience after humbling experience, which could easily be classified into the merciless aspect that is not apart of life. If you feel hatred towards someone pray and ask God, the Eternal Father, that He will grant you compassion towards that person and soften your heart toward them. In my whole going on 6 years of marriage I haven't even gotten a kiss, and she has only spoken to me one time. That seems rather merciless to me, which mercilessness is vanity. Vanity is emptiness, which emptiness leads to misery, pain, suffering, and all manner of undesirable things that have no end ever save it be repentance.

I want you to know that I still believe in you. I'm in the process of filing for a divorce. This kind of marriage is not the kind of marriage I want. I need caring, sharing, mercy, and true love. I am moving to Vernal, Utah to work as a roughneck for an oil company. My start date is May 19th. Do I forgive her for all that she did to me? Yes. Would I take her back? Yes, but it would be under much different terms. I am choosing to go in a direction where only mercy and forgiveness are found, and she seems to be going in the opposite direction. I can't have or be apart of a marriage where mercy and forgiveness and the teachings of Jesus Christ are not present. It would be a living hell. Also Matthew 15:11 is a parable and not a license to drink or eat whatever you want. Maybe we can talk about it some time.

I miss laughing with you, it was so much fun. I also miss your smile. The way your face lights up when you are truly inspired is a song of beauty in and of itself. I share these things with you, in the names of God, the Eternal Father, and Jesus Christ, amen.

Joshua